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I hope you hurt.I Hope This Makes You Hurt.
You know you could scream it at me forever,
but you won't get it through to me.
I know im right. This fear is too strong.
I won't believe you anymore,
and i've lost all hope.
You said you weren't stupid enough,
to throw away something so perfect.
Then why are you turning this into the perfect lie?
I wish i could believe you,
but i won't let you hurt me anymore.
Just kill me now and wake me from this nightmare.
Why can't i be normal?
I'd rather die alone then risk this love.
It's sad these are the things you make me think.
Wanna give yourself in yet?
No, you'll wait till you've completely destroyed me.
You won't stop until my heart's in the
Forever? I think not.When forever lost its meaning.
I promise myself i won't care.
Distracting myself from your stare.
I won't forget you.
but i'm tired of lying,
tired of fighting you.
And nothings gunna change.
You asked for my heart,
and i won't let you down,
but not the way you lie to me.
And tear it apart and ask for me to stay.
You say i make no sense.
You know i make no sense.
You love me.
Bear with me.
Pretend it's not forever,
i'll put myself together.
Too bad i'll live forever,
just in spite of your death.
We don't belong together.
I know ill feel better.
We'll make it through.
..No we can't.
but i won't forget you.
In Your Eyes.In Your Eyes.
Tell me your deepest secrets.
Choke on your words again.
You're the deciever, i'm the weakest.
I'd wish you'd tell me what i see in your eyes.
I'm waiting to hear my fears.
I'd cut my throat and spill my guts out to you,
just to know what you're hiding.
It never works that way does it?
You're so unfair.
My death is what you were plotting.
You've always fed off my pain,
but believe me dear, i won't die in vain.
You know you go right through me.
Your laugh shows your weakness.
Your smile shows your flaws.
You scream your fears, your thoughts, your lies.
Everything i saw in your eyes.
Too bad im always right, huh?
My heart breaks one last time,
but i wont die alone tonight.
Nine TimesI saw him nine times.
The first time we were both sitting in the room together, getting ready to take the math test that would determine our placement. I was scatterbrained and throwing things around, trying to find the pencils that I had known I would need but had still just tossed in my purse. He was lounging backwards in his chair, looking for all the world as though he didn’t have a single care in the world, including the upcoming test. It annoyed me, that I was frantic and ready to scream, while someone else could be that relaxed.
I tested out of the class.
I don’t know if he did.
The second time I saw him, it was a few months after I arrived on campus. He was the one rushing and frantic this time, running across the square. He was probably late for class, though I had no way of knowing for sure. I was already lost in my own thoughts and ideas, deciding on my major and convincing people that yes, this is what I really want to do with my life. If they weren
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